Handsome & Gretel.

Hey all. I haven't written lately. I honestly haven't really been in the mood. My allergies are killing me, the meds make me ridiculously tired but if I don't take them I can barely see since my eyes get so red. I'm in a writing mood today however. School is almost over, which makes me ridiculously happy. There's a slight problem though, I'm failing all of my classes. You see my school is strange, so I get have only 4 classes every semester. I have to get my grades up in a couple of days, it's so stressful. My earlobes are now gauged but they're all nasty and stretched out since I can't keep the tapers in. I did it for the hell of it really, I got really bored last week. The Horum is making me annoyed lately, it seems like all the "cool" people left and now there are all these obnoxious Australian fangirls. Not that I have a problem with fangirls (ahem my Faris Badwan obsession), but they're just... annoying to me. They don't seem to talk about anything productive either. It's just one of those weird things that bother me I guess.

I'm thinking I might actually be manic depressive. I have a friend that's bipolar and she was telling me from experience she really thinks I am. My moods get in the way of everything, I literally never know how I'm going to be. Normally I'm very quiet and anti-social, but I have my "moments". Whatever, none of this shit is relevant to anything. I'm scared I'm never going to get a significant other. It's quite depressing. I'm listening to Black Flag right now. Adult. have been my obsession lately, they're so good. Very dancey and fun. But not in an annoying, overly peppy way. I just realized how much of a cynic I sound like. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it. I want to go see some shows this summer, I have to stay in shit Jersey so I might go to Warped Tour. Might as well make the best out of it. My throat stings badly right now, we've been having very dramatic weather changes lately. One day it's freezing cold, then it rains and the next day it's extremely hot. That might be what's making me so depressed lately. My paranoia has increased as well, not a good week for me. I will end this with the amazing serenading powers of Aphex Twin. And Chris Cunningham's brilliant creepiness.