Where Did You Sleep Last Night?

I've been having a confusing day. School finally ended for me, and I told everybody I would go to school for the last day but I slept in (on purpose). I feel like a complete asshole to say the least. But I didn't miss much. Nothing really happened for me today, and I don't know what to do with myself. I've recently gotten into Panic At The Disco and Taking Back Sunday again. Only Panic's first album though, A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. I used to be a complete PATD fan girl. It was sad. I actually started to cry when I heard Pretty. Odd. It was so bad, not the cabaret pop-punk I fell in love with. It sounds like a bad Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club cover album. They ripped off the Beatles so bad. It was a proper shit album. No wonder they're has-beens now. I don't blame it. I feel like it's Fall Out Boy 2.0. But at least they still have "fans". I've also been listening to The Pretty Things. They're amazing, proper psychedelic. New Jersey's been boring the hell out of me. I need to go out of this country.

I can't spend too much time without traveling. It literally makes me go mad. I'm thinking of going to India with my uncle and aunt in the end of July. That's how desperate I am. Although they're going to Calcutta, and I like Delhi better. Calcutta has lost it's excitement for me. Delhi is so full of exciting crazy people. Bengali's are so boring, they just care about social status and how educated they are. Sure Delhi folks might be self-absorbed, only focused on drinking and the latest Bollywood movies, but I feel at one with them. Plus it'll help me work on my Hindi. Which is terrible mixed with my "joisey" accent. I miss my family terribly, especially my little cousins. I even miss those crazy monsoons. I don't know, I have no job, they didn't even take me for fucking volunteering. The local amusement park (yes I live in the town that's home to the tallest roller coaster in the world) isn't hiring anymore, which sucks. I really should start eating healthy. All I eat is candy and ice cream. Either that or I forget to eat most the time.

My only hope is McDonald's, but this really annoying kid work's there as well, and he seems to hate me now for no reason. I'm so sad The Real Housewives of New Jersey is over. I watched the pt. 1 of the reunion though, that guy who was hosting it is an idiot. I hate how he looks so delighted when they start fighting or breaking down. The bastard can at least pretend to look a little sympathetic. My favorite housewife is Teresa. She's hilarious, with her "bubbies" haha. My mom seems to like Caroline the best, who reminds me of her a little bit. Danielle looks exactly like my neighbor, who's about 55 and prances around outside in a hot pink bikini every opportunity she gets. Dina is my least favorite, she seems absolutely fake and arrogant. People like that disgust me, her daughter is annoying as well.

I've decided to go vegetarian. This is my fourth attempt, but I'm pretty sure it'll work this time. That's the plus side to my OCD. I managed to stop compulsively biting my nails this year, so

this should be a breeze compared to that. I hope this summer turns out to be good for me. My pool should be swimmable by next week, I've been scrubbing it non-stop for the past couple of days. I wish I was able to go see a therapist though, I'm too broke for one. My OCD has been getting extremely bad, and it's interfering with my life. I'm also pretty sure I'm bi-polar. Not just because I'm a little moody, I literally have no control over my emotions most of the time. Ugh, I missed It's On With Alexa Chung today. I love her, I don't know why all those Brits call her a mega-bitch and really mean. Whatever, no more complaining. I'll take my leave now, have a great week kids.