Where Did You Sleep Last Night?

I've been having a confusing day. School finally ended for me, and I told everybody I would go to school for the last day but I slept in (on purpose). I feel like a complete asshole to say the least. But I didn't miss much. Nothing really happened for me today, and I don't know what to do with myself. I've recently gotten into Panic At The Disco and Taking Back Sunday again. Only Panic's first album though, A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. I used to be a complete PATD fan girl. It was sad. I actually started to cry when I heard Pretty. Odd. It was so bad, not the cabaret pop-punk I fell in love with. It sounds like a bad Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club cover album. They ripped off the Beatles so bad. It was a proper shit album. No wonder they're has-beens now. I don't blame it. I feel like it's Fall Out Boy 2.0. But at least they still have "fans". I've also been listening to The Pretty Things. They're amazing, proper psychedelic. New Jersey's been boring the hell out of me. I need to go out of this country.

I can't spend too much time without traveling. It literally makes me go mad. I'm thinking of going to India with my uncle and aunt in the end of July. That's how desperate I am. Although they're going to Calcutta, and I like Delhi better. Calcutta has lost it's excitement for me. Delhi is so full of exciting crazy people. Bengali's are so boring, they just care about social status and how educated they are. Sure Delhi folks might be self-absorbed, only focused on drinking and the latest Bollywood movies, but I feel at one with them. Plus it'll help me work on my Hindi. Which is terrible mixed with my "joisey" accent. I miss my family terribly, especially my little cousins. I even miss those crazy monsoons. I don't know, I have no job, they didn't even take me for fucking volunteering. The local amusement park (yes I live in the town that's home to the tallest roller coaster in the world) isn't hiring anymore, which sucks. I really should start eating healthy. All I eat is candy and ice cream. Either that or I forget to eat most the time.

My only hope is McDonald's, but this really annoying kid work's there as well, and he seems to hate me now for no reason. I'm so sad The Real Housewives of New Jersey is over. I watched the pt. 1 of the reunion though, that guy who was hosting it is an idiot. I hate how he looks so delighted when they start fighting or breaking down. The bastard can at least pretend to look a little sympathetic. My favorite housewife is Teresa. She's hilarious, with her "bubbies" haha. My mom seems to like Caroline the best, who reminds me of her a little bit. Danielle looks exactly like my neighbor, who's about 55 and prances around outside in a hot pink bikini every opportunity she gets. Dina is my least favorite, she seems absolutely fake and arrogant. People like that disgust me, her daughter is annoying as well.

I've decided to go vegetarian. This is my fourth attempt, but I'm pretty sure it'll work this time. That's the plus side to my OCD. I managed to stop compulsively biting my nails this year, so

this should be a breeze compared to that. I hope this summer turns out to be good for me. My pool should be swimmable by next week, I've been scrubbing it non-stop for the past couple of days. I wish I was able to go see a therapist though, I'm too broke for one. My OCD has been getting extremely bad, and it's interfering with my life. I'm also pretty sure I'm bi-polar. Not just because I'm a little moody, I literally have no control over my emotions most of the time. Ugh, I missed It's On With Alexa Chung today. I love her, I don't know why all those Brits call her a mega-bitch and really mean. Whatever, no more complaining. I'll take my leave now, have a great week kids.

For Every Kiss You Give Me I'll Give You Three.

Aiight. Had a pretty shitty week to be honest. Yesterday was hell, and the day before was okay but kind of uneventful. I'm listening to some dub mix of A Milli by Lil Wayne. I didn't go to school today, been feeling pretty sick. Don't know what it is, my stomach hurts so I can't really eat anything, and I can't hear anything. I'm listening to Marilyn Manson right now. I've been sort of a vegetable for the last couple of days, I can't do anything. Some strange movie was on today, then I watched Little Miss Sunshine. I love that movie so much, I can imagine my family doing that. The grandpa is my idol, he's so funny. It's sad when he dies. I'm thinking of getting a haircut since my hair grows like grass. I get it cut and then it just goes back to long in a week.

I might go really dramatic and really short, but I have a very androgynous face so I don't want to look like a little boy. Listening to 60's girl groups right now, I love it. Bleh, this Monster is making me feel sick. My last day of school is next Wednesday, thank god it's finally ending. My grades are going to be shit though I know it. Oh well. Grrr, I have to stop switching topics so much. My stomach burns right now, it's very painful. I hope the doctor can fix my boo-boos (ick, that sounds rather creepy). I might get an Alexa Chung haircut, it looks really low maintenance and pretty. The weather is finally nice outside today, for the last two weeks it felt like it turned into London, all grey and rainy. On Monday there was a foot of hail in North Jersey, it's kind of fucked up. It hailed here a little bit yesterday.

There's a '06 era Horrors sounding band on this Garage Punk podcast. It's Sonic Nightmares #28. They have an organ and everything o_o. I have nothing else to say, along with being sick my mind's turned into mush. Ta-ta for now folks. I'll leave you to enjoy the fabulously synchronized Ronettes.

Handsome & Gretel.

Hey all. I haven't written lately. I honestly haven't really been in the mood. My allergies are killing me, the meds make me ridiculously tired but if I don't take them I can barely see since my eyes get so red. I'm in a writing mood today however. School is almost over, which makes me ridiculously happy. There's a slight problem though, I'm failing all of my classes. You see my school is strange, so I get have only 4 classes every semester. I have to get my grades up in a couple of days, it's so stressful. My earlobes are now gauged but they're all nasty and stretched out since I can't keep the tapers in. I did it for the hell of it really, I got really bored last week. The Horum is making me annoyed lately, it seems like all the "cool" people left and now there are all these obnoxious Australian fangirls. Not that I have a problem with fangirls (ahem my Faris Badwan obsession), but they're just... annoying to me. They don't seem to talk about anything productive either. It's just one of those weird things that bother me I guess.

I'm thinking I might actually be manic depressive. I have a friend that's bipolar and she was telling me from experience she really thinks I am. My moods get in the way of everything, I literally never know how I'm going to be. Normally I'm very quiet and anti-social, but I have my "moments". Whatever, none of this shit is relevant to anything. I'm scared I'm never going to get a significant other. It's quite depressing. I'm listening to Black Flag right now. Adult. have been my obsession lately, they're so good. Very dancey and fun. But not in an annoying, overly peppy way. I just realized how much of a cynic I sound like. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it. I want to go see some shows this summer, I have to stay in shit Jersey so I might go to Warped Tour. Might as well make the best out of it. My throat stings badly right now, we've been having very dramatic weather changes lately. One day it's freezing cold, then it rains and the next day it's extremely hot. That might be what's making me so depressed lately. My paranoia has increased as well, not a good week for me. I will end this with the amazing serenading powers of Aphex Twin. And Chris Cunningham's brilliant creepiness.